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Time really flies….19th Jan already…Soon SHE will be leaving to Australia in another 24 hours…Feel lost…sad…..What can i do??nothing…SHE has been my girlfriend and best friend for 423 days..Really feel sad…Crying is not the best way to solve problem, i don’t like to cry also..But, I just cant control myself from crying after seeing HER this afternoon…

SHE will persue her dream in Australia…I am really happy for her…Maybe i just cant get used to the days without HER..We share our woes and joys together…Really cant bear to leave HER.. We told each other, we must stay strong..We must make impossible possible..We will make it, I believe..Seperation is just temporary but our love will stay forever

Chui Han, all the best in Australia..miss u always….

Balance…What is it???

Balance is important to me recently…Balance in work, family and love…How to reach balance???can somebody please tell me???

This kind of problem never come into my mind, i think for many years..

but, thing change recently…i am lost..i am confused…i dun know what am i doing recently…this is not the life i persue…i dun like my present life..it’s all about work..working for 10++ hours without enjoying my life to the fullest…who am i now??a machine??or a " diligent" medical student??i am lost…..

how to reach balance btw those 3 categories??who can help me??sometimes life is about choosing..when u pay too much attention on one side, then the others will lose their balance…and people lost…

sometimes we cant have the life we want…people are born to choose..really???does is really happen???i doubt….

lost…lost…lost..i must do something to have a better life..i am not going to get lost in my life again…Never!!!!

it’s my 2nd day in kt, after coming back from kl…it’s really nice going back to my hometown, the place i live for 22 years, the place i studied, the place with a lot a lot memories..it’s great to see my mum after the accident…she looks fine but i know she suffered a lot all this while.. talked to her and found that she’s really scared after the accident..sometimes i feel verry helpless..after studying medicine for 2 years, i still cant really help her overcoming her scare..

Today, sunday, it’s great to see my all 3 sister again after leaving home for 1 month..we chatted a lot, joked a lot and went shopping and had seafood…they brightened up my sunday..they made me laugh and we share a lot of things..thanx a lot, my all 3 sisters and my bro- in- law…

Chatted with my dad, he’s still the same…he’s calm, always there when i have problem…went shoppign with him today, we talked a lot, about his diabetes, about my life in school, my gf, my posting…he’s stressful, i know…especially after the accident…dad, just wanna tell u , thanx a lot…

Everyone has his or her problem..it’s life..it depends on how u take it…if u r strong enuv, u will overcome it…if u r weak, u will be failed..i wanna to be the former…i allways take problem as challenge in life..it’s like a test for me..to test my endurance, my tolerance and my kindness…we dun have second chance to live..we got to live our life to the fullest..people may think i am weird, selfish..haha…i can only tell them, it’s life..i have my own life..this’s the life i choose…becuz we got to take 100% responsibility to our life…i am glad, whenever i am in difficult situation, i have somwbody to lean on, my family, chui han, and buddies..thanx a lot…i love u all…

It’s was a wonderful Sunday morning, the weather was nice, i was sleeping in the room…i thought it would be a great weekend but….my sis called me in the afternoon, told me that my mum met an accident this morning when going out for work…i was worried about her..i tried to stay calm but a lot of thing came across my mind..i dun want anything happen to my mum..luckily she is alright..i am really grateful to my family in kota tinggi, eve, baby, dlyn, ah heng, edmund and my daddy…Thanx, NG’s family….thanx for the everything…i also wanna thank my gf, chui han..she was the one who gave me support the whole day..she tolerated my bad tempered..she ’s always there to listen my problem..thanx, dear dear…..:)